Oxymoron

I grew up with so well protected by my family, especially my mom, my grandma and my aunts.  There wasn't a single thing I needed to be concerned of since everything was well arranged and prepared for me.  Everywhere I went I was escorted by one of the family members.  I thought that I was well favored by most of my elementary school teachers just because my grand parents were doing so well financially and they were well known and respected by my teachers, not because I placed the first rank almost every year.

Basically, the path that I would be going was well paved ahead of me by my family.  The fact that I was never been on school excursions (because my parents had lots of concerns about  me when I was alone and out of their eyesight) and what I wore daily was decided, prepared and got ready by my mom every day until during my freshman year really made me to wish a bird who is flying freely and experience things on its own, rather than a bird in the cage.

Suddenly, things started to go the other way round.  It was when my two main guardians and escorts who were my two maternal aunts, my mom's two younger sisters, left me alone under circumstances.  My big aunt got married and my youngest aunt who dearly loved me lost her battle with lung cancer.  My mom was busy helping my dad with the business and left me alone with the decision making token for the path that I would be going.  Just like that, I made lots of decisions for my education which later would lead me to my current career.  At times, I felt helpless since I wasn't sure I was making the right decision or going to the right direction.  At times, sleepless nights during exams and stresses and exhausts at work made me feel weak.  And it made me mourn my long lost well protection and care by my family at the same time.  

Isn't it very common that we, human beings, always tend to like the opposites and contradictions?  When one had a well-paved road, she wanted to try to make her own road.  And when it came the time to  make her own road and was making one, she missed the well-paved road she once used to get.  Isn't it funny?

Likewise, we like to be a grownup when we were a kid but when one started to grow old, he or she wants to be a carefree kid again.  A lot of things we currently have, we take it granted.  Then, when we suddenly loose it, its value suddenly surfaces and we regret. 

In contrast, the more we know we can't get something we want, the higher value it is, agree?  When it's easily available to one, we take it granted.  It always appeared to me that the movie which I had watched Nth times and I didn't bother to watch it anymore really attracted me on my exam nights. :P  And there always got super long list of things to do right before my exam so that I would be more well prepared next time for next year's exam.  But guess what?  That long list vanished with the wind and evaporated as the gas once the exam was over.  :P  And the same mindset of being more prepared and more disciplined would visit me again during next year's exam.  LOL :P

Super famous celebrities wanted privacy whilst we as most of the commoners like publicity by publishing everything or posting pictures at everywhere we go on the facebook? :D 

People in the villages wonder what it takes to experience the city life while people in the city pays to experience the urban or rural lives during their vacations.

Single people want to get married whilst it pops married people's mind with the freedom of being single every once in a while.  Couples who aren't able to get kids try all possible way to conceive.  But parents with kids long to have a break every once in a while. 

People who are out of job want so badly to be back onto the career no matter what it takes whilst those with jobs usually complain how tiring and stressful their job life is.  Black people want to have a fair skin whilst white people sun tanned to get a darker skin. 

Oh well, this world is full of opposites, contrasts and idiosyncrasies.  I guess it's what makes the varieties and differences.  The word "miscellaneous" exist there for a reason.  Like colors, opposites and contrasts make us different and unique.  And guess that they are what make the world go round. The opposites attract each other and contradictions make spices of our lives, don't they?  Yeah, Oxymoron!!